finally

…I shall introduce y'all to 3 places.

1) There is Execration. A vengeful, sinuous body of water on the outskirts of my psyche. It is black and bottomless, and all the maps stop there. Maritime monstrosities abound, blood is as abundant as water, but it is so dark that one is blind. It is a cloud of mayhem and murder. All the abominations you can imagine, they're all there, inside the metaphor.

2) There is also The Void. Beyond Execration there lies an indeterminate wasteland. The alluvial equivalent of the Calm Belt in OnePiece. Nothing really happens. The mood is perhaps more lachrymose than Execration: there is neither progress nor regression. In Execration, you kill to survive. Hence there is an inspiration (however decadent) to live. Here, time just sucks survival right out of you. And there's nothing you can do about it.

I've never noticed before that Execration and The Void are so intimately linked. Straining my ears, I can hear the obstreperous, recalcitrant waves refusing to give in to the deadening silence. Nor did I notice that The Void is one of two landings after wading out of onto the shore and shaking the inky black water out of your hair.

3) And then there is The Haven. It is quite inexplicable. It is not like the Heaven some believe in, where everything is perfect. In The Haven, the Powers that Be lift the lid of Pandora's Box ever so slightly once in a very blue moon. The potential of threat is controlled and monitored, just like the amount of sugar in mother's curry. Other than that, The Haven is a simple, well (but not ostentatiously) decorated place, with a warm fireplace where we gather around and tell our stories.

The Haven is the second possible coast, on the other side of Execration. The borders of these places are a source of constant dispute, just like India and Pakistan.

4) Finally, there is something called Wanderlust. It is not as much a place as it is a process. Some characters experience Wanderlust, and it is these that know me best. They are precious gems which I will treasure till death claims me, or I drown in Execration.

singapore idol (3)

mama maia!!!

aw ud better believe it.

and my favourites (which doesnt mean i think dey'd be singapore's favourites, considering bloody taufik and jerry ong made it) are:
1.jessea
2.leandra
3.maia

kick ass babes.

on another note,

i feel its time for me to type one of those more profound pieces which no one really reads =/

dentists.blehz.

"Hi, I'm calling from the dentist. May I speak to Miss Ng Pi Yan please?"

*pengs*

Knn.

If ure gonna stick foul-smelling antiseptic and weird instruments up my mouth you'd better be better acquainted with my gender status.

dis goes out to everyone

21st is way too soon.

And it is time I set out my tributes to alla y'all.

Shijia baobei: I shall tell u in private.

Lewis ex-bf: life here would’ve been fucking impossible without u. u were e one I was most worried about when I leave, since we spent e most time 2gether.
Constant : u n i.
Variables: everyone around us.
Im real happy and very much relieved that uve found yo significant other.
Careful where u place your fingers now eh? ;)
One day, we'll close Paragon and shop all we want. And then, watch out Times Square!

Dal: huat huat huat! I know I still owe u a testi, but this should suffice. I still believe we'd be down for life. Investment banking here we come!

Joyce dearie: e most precious friendship ive made this time back and in recent memory. Chemistry, mutual respect and admiration, wonderful times. Wad more can I ask for. We'll party in Dec ya? After that, we'd party in London!

Hong champ: e most unique person ive met in a long time. I also reckon we have a damn unique relationship. Sth which I cant quite put my finger on. Always admired your writing. Best writer of my age ive seen. Don’t ever feel guilty burdening me with yo problems ya?

Jack: keep tryin to change. Ill be here every step of the way. I wouldn’t be me without u. much respect.

Ming: Think the words we exchanged e other day encapsulates our whole friendship: we go way back, and we'll go right ahead.

Jason: ure so damn funny mate. Ure so damn smart. Kick ass in A's mate. Fuckin kick arse.

Joe: didn’t get much time with you, but congrats on finding YOUR significant other! Id never thought id see this moment anytime soon. Please please try 2 get yo life on track. Time and tide wait for no man. *snap* and your time's over.

Joce: we hardly speak anymore, but ill never forget I owe u my whole life. Everything I achieve henceforth would not be possible if not for u.

Ying/keef/chieh/kiddo/sparkiez: all e best. We'll catch up in Dec. will miss y'all. And Im not just saying it for e sake of saying it.

love y'all. god bless. thanks to those who have been thru hell and back with me. u guyz have no idea how emotional id be come 21st.

p.s. I typed this so early and rather extemporarily so u all could leave comments so I can feel loved :) so please do.

parents

" we are not that unreasonable"

understatement of the century.

my dad cant afford it.its ok.we only live in a big house with 2 cars.he cant afford it. his not ill treating me.his not ill treating me.his not ill treating me.

knn

My dad is really...kiam! I thought GBP1000 would just be sufficient for me to lead a decent life. Ya noe. Comfortable but not extravagant.

Rent is GBP400

He just told me GBP1000 is INCLUDING RENT

singapore idol (2)

I don’t feel strongly about any of the contestants tonight.

Although I do think that malay guy has style.

And I thought Nathaniel was quite liked by the girls.

Was about to convince myself that skinny people can actually have that kinda appeal. Until Dick took a dig at him. Wad a dick. (no not meant as a corny joke, it just "appeared" n I shall leave it there)

a VERY boring post

Really…don’t read this. It is written for my satisfaction and mine alone. You have been warned.

It has been brought to my attention from joyce’s blog that several people are unclear about the etymology of the word “sophist”, which I had the pleasure of learning from Hartley in Ancient History last year. As I am very much interested in that word (not the people who practice sophistry in the modern sense) I shall attempt to clear shit up. Even dictionary.com (one of my favourite sites) seems to have a weak sense of history when identifying the origin of the word.

Since the days of Nestor and Odysseus, the art of persuasive speech had been held in great esteem by the Greeks. This was perhaps best demonstrated in introduction of a new class of names, which reflected excellence in addressing public assemblies e.g Pythagoras, Anaxagoras.

Time passed, and in the atmosphere of critical inquiry and scepticism that followed, Greece had to provide for the higher education of their youth, which the practical considerations of the democracy demanded.

This demand was met by teachers who traveled and taught arts such as speaking, reasoning etc and received remuneration for their services. These people were called Sophists. Properly a Sophist is someone who is eminently proficient in a particular art – say cookery or poetry.

The name acquired a slightly unfavourable colour due (primarily) to 3 reasons.
1.the distrust felt by the masses toward men who knew too much
2.the prejudice which in Hellas always existed against those who gave their services for pay (wtf rite)
3.the jealousy of those who were too impoverished to pay Sophists and hence were disadvantaged in public life compared to those trained by Sophists

But the pall of contempt which clung onto the sophistic profession did not imply that they were imposters, seeking to hoodwink the public by arguments which were fallacious. That suggestion- which has determined the contemporary meaning of the word- was first made by Plato and is entirely unhistorical. This meaning thus represents a form of historical revisionism, one which has obscured the origin and meaning of word in the Greek and strict sense.

xie xie. i feel much better now.